ddub
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ddub replied to the forum topic Am new – Suicide in the group
Sibling Grief 1 week, 1 day agono no it doesn’t… My brothers friends have no respect for me or the lose I have suffered as his sister. You were his sister from birth nothing can top that! my mom tells my dad (who sides with his friends) and […]
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ddub posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago
In reply to: ddub posted an update Yesterday, My little sister turned 24….. it has been 6 months 2 weeks and 4 days 3 and half hours or so since Derrick’s dreadful accident. yesterday around two oclock my cousin Curtis Lost […] ViewThank you, I know this deep down, but sometimes, a lot of times, the grief clouds my minds eye and i cant see this and i get soooo angry! and want to scream! It is so not fair! Derrick was 27 Kenny just 22…. they were good men, they had no family’s of their own yet…. My brother wanted one soooo bad and my son still wishes he was here as do I….…[Read more]
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ddub posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago
In reply to: Fran posted an update This week will be the first anniversary of my sister’s death. She died at quarter past midnight on the 14th of April, but because of the time I always think of it as being the 13th. For that […] ViewThe pain comes and goes, it keeps you on your toes unfortunately. The 6 month anniversary of my brothers death was the same date and the same day of the week, i think that made is so much harder for all of us… for some reason i think it would have been easier to spread it out. My mom said she woke at exactly the time he died.
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ddub posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago
Yesterday, My little sister turned 24….. it has been 6 months 2 weeks and 4 days 3 and half hours or so since Derrick’s dreadful accident. yesterday around two oclock my cousin Curtis Lost his big brother Kenny in a freak car accident. We don’t know the details, but Kenny had just turned 22 last month. Curtis has a birthday on Friday He will…[Read more]
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ddub posted an update in the group
Sibling Grief 2 months, 3 weeks agoSo Friday was 5 calendar months for, i can feel the pain get worse each day…. somedays I feel like i am pulling out of life again…. and i don’t want to I want to live my life. I recieved another blow on Saturday. Our Great Grandma passed away… about 230am… it was past her time and she was ready, she wasn’t sick and we weren’t expecting…[Read more]
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ddub posted a new activity comment 2 months, 3 weeks ago
In reply to: Kathy M. replied to the forum topic What do you miss the most about your sibling? in the group Sibling Grief I miss knowing that he is alive. Sounds kind of weird, but my relationship with my brother was odd, I […] Viewmy brother wasn’t in trouble, but he was a risk taker… and i guess to the police a trouble maker, even though he was never cited for anything…. :/ But I understand what you mean, I miss knowing that my brother is alive as well, I miss knowing that i can call him and ask him how his weekend was…. to see what he did or where he went…. what…[Read more]
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ddub posted an update 3 months ago
I had a dream last night, it hurt me sooo bad… I dreamed my brother called to come over, like nothing has happened! he said oh no I am sorry to worry you! I’ve just been away for work!!!! I’ll be over in a little bit..then he did come over!!! oh how aweful it was to wake up to reality this morning!!!!
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ddub replied to the forum topic Were you there when "it" happened or did you need to see your sibling for closure? in the group
Sibling Grief 3 months agoMy brother was in an accident, he went instantly… they say he didn’t know, but I wonder, if deep down he did… It kills me, I wish he could have help on for just a little while so I could have held his hand […]
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ddub posted a new activity comment 3 months ago
In reply to: ddub posted an update in the group Sibling Grief OMG I was having a generally rough day…. nothing to do with grief, more to do with i think to much happiness on V-day…. but I just had this AWEFUL thought that […] ViewI am going crazy, sometimes, I feel I don’t want to be without him enough to go . but I know that is wrong, i know i have to be strong, but right now everything in this world is falling apart without him, and I feel like there isn’t much left… then yesterday out of the blue, I had this image almost like from his point of view of the front of…[Read more]
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ddub posted an update in the group
Sibling Grief 3 months agoOMG I was having a generally rough day…. nothing to do with grief, more to do with i think to much happiness on V-day…. but I just had this AWEFUL thought that came to my head, from nowhere! I wasn’t thinking of my brother I was sitting here @ work, and it took my break away!!!!!!!!!!! I still can’t catch it….. What if my brother knew he…[Read more]
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You will drive yourself crazy. Believe me, I know! My brother died in his sleep (?) about 7 months ago. For the first few months that’s all I could do was to think that way. Did he lay in bed and suffer before he died? He woke up at 3 am with a bad headache. What if he had gone for help? Would he still be here? Did his wife, who was right…[Read more]
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These thoughts consume me. I don’t know how I am functioning with these thoughts in my head. I try to live in the moment but the they always return. We have to learn to live with these thoughts eventhough we are brought to our knees in sorrow by them. A big struggle that I never thought our family would have to deal with. The depression is…[Read more]
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I am going crazy, sometimes, I feel I don’t want to be without him enough to go . but I know that is wrong, i know i have to be strong, but right now everything in this world is falling apart without him, and I feel like there isn’t much left… then yesterday out of the blue, I had this image almost like from his point of view of the front of…[Read more]
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ddub replied to the forum topic D you want to remain sad and mournful as a way to remember and/or punish yourself? in the group
Sibling Grief 3 months agoIt sucks knowing someone you love is making choices that will ultimately end their life. In my life I have two of those. My brother wasn’t one of them. He was fun loving and kind, a risk taker for sure, but […]
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ddub replied to the forum topic D you want to remain sad and mournful as a way to remember and/or punish yourself? in the group
Sibling Grief 3 months agoI was told by a friend last week, she was trying to help, that even though it is going to take me time to get through this. Maybe I shouldn’t bring him up so much, like when I tell people of the things I do to […]
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ddub posted a new activity comment 3 months ago
In reply to: alisha started the forum topic When your remaining sibling is in danger in the group Sibling Grief I just don’t know what to do. As if my brother’s death hasn’t been a nightmare all on it’s own for my family, my […] ViewAlisha, I am so sorry you have to go through this now too! I know it must be hard! I can’t imagine the suffering you are feeling at your sisters hands, I do know the suffering you feel at the loss of your brother and the absence of your sister though. I don’t have much advice for what to do about your sister, I do believe a good heartfelt “I…[Read more]
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ddub posted a new activity comment 3 months ago
In reply to: ddub posted an update in the group Sibling Grief I realized this morning that I have turned my grief inward… I have bottled it up, i haven’t been letting it out and now I feel like I am going to collapse in on […] ViewThank you, the crying thing, is exactly what I do, but i stop because my son, will say “are you crying again?!” I talked to my Doctor, and my sons teacher so they both know where i am at. My Doctor got me some new medication… and my sons teacher, i felt needed to be aware, that his Dad is taking most of the parental roles, as i am not a my…[Read more]
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ddub posted a new activity comment 3 months, 1 week ago
In reply to: ddub posted an update in the group Sibling Grief I realized this morning that I have turned my grief inward… I have bottled it up, i haven’t been letting it out and now I feel like I am going to collapse in on […] ViewYou are right…. I feel all those things…. I still just want to be with him… I find myself bargaining to be with him! “just five more minutes please!” one more day! “let it be me, he has more to offer!”
Your brother sounds like mine… I called mine MacGyver! LOL if it was broke he would fix it, for anyone! the day of the accident he was…[Read more] -
ddub posted an update in the group
Sibling Grief 3 months, 1 week agoI realized this morning that I have turned my grief inward… I have bottled it up, i haven’t been letting it out and now I feel like I am going to collapse in on myself. I recieved some nice messages and posts and comments and i wanted to respond… but I didn’t know what to say…. and I read some many things and wanted to offer support but I…[Read more]
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I think plenty of us feel that way. For several months I just missed him so much and my grief was so large that I wanted to be with him. I really didn’t care if I woke up at all. I still feel that way sometimes but not near as much. I feel empty much of the time but when I come here I feel a little better because I’m with “kindred spirits”.…[Read more]
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You are right…. I feel all those things…. I still just want to be with him… I find myself bargaining to be with him! “just five more minutes please!” one more day! “let it be me, he has more to offer!”
Your brother sounds like mine… I called mine MacGyver! LOL if it was broke he would fix it, for anyone! the day of the accident he was…[Read more]
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I am sorry that you are hurting. I feel the same way; I have 2 kids, who are 7 and 6 and I’m married, and I just feel like I can’t offer anything to them. I go through the motions of making sure they have what they need (clean clothes, homework done, food, etc), but the whole time I am with them I don’t feel like myself. I rarely feel anything.…[Read more]
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Thank you, the crying thing, is exactly what I do, but i stop because my son, will say “are you crying again?!” I talked to my Doctor, and my sons teacher so they both know where i am at. My Doctor got me some new medication… and my sons teacher, i felt needed to be aware, that his Dad is taking most of the parental roles, as i am not a my…[Read more]
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ddub posted an update in the group
Sibling Grief 3 months, 1 week agoSo, we got my brothers Death Certificate…. I hate that word!!! took them 3 months…. The insurance took his motorcycle, we have gone through his house soooo many times… and i feel guilty everytime I do, like he is going to walk in a catch me! It’s his things we shouldn’t be taking his things, we shouldn’t be selling his house or his…[Read more]
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You can drive yourself crazy asking all the “why” questions. Believe me I know. My brother has been gone a little over 6 months and for the first 2 or 3 months I kept dwellling on what could have been different. He had a bad headache at 3 in the morning. Why didn’t his wife do something? Why didn’t he wake her? Why didn’t he listen to…[Read more]
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ddub posted a new activity comment 3 months, 2 weeks ago
In reply to: Rachelle meyer posted an update Not really sure how to use this site or forums. My brother was killed in a helicopter accident a little over two years ago. He was the head flight nurse for an air ambulance company […] ViewI am so sorry for your loss… so tragic… your brother was helping people….. terrible! it is terrible no matter what, but not having answers will drive you just crazy!
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ddub replied to the forum topic Share a sibling story that makes you smile or laugh! in the group
Sibling Grief 3 months, 2 weeks agoon feb 2nd 2011 our area got hit HARD with snow and ice…. the roads were impassible and we were all stuck were we were… my fam at home… my brother at his house… my dad at his and my mom at work….. my sis […]
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ddub replied to the forum topic Pictures in the group
Sibling Grief 3 months, 2 weeks agoI can’t stop looking at him…. I don’t want to forget a single detail of him. I am sooooo scared of that!
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My situation is very similar. My grandfather passed way this last December from a freak accident. He died one week later. Just 9 weeks after that, my little sister, only 21 years old, died from complications to Chron’s Disease. This too was a complete shock. Myself and my family feel as though everything is hitting us at once.
The only thing I…[Read more]
Thank you, I know this deep down, but sometimes, a lot of times, the grief clouds my minds eye and i cant see this and i get soooo angry! and want to scream! It is so not fair! Derrick was 27 Kenny just 22…. they were good men, they had no family’s of their own yet…. My brother wanted one soooo bad and my son still wishes he was here as do I….…[Read more]